As I just logged on I realized that I have not posted to this blog since April 16 — nearly four months ago! It is not that I have not thought about posting, or thought about my blogging friends, but I have had a very difficult time sorting through all my thoughts on this subject. So here is my public summary of all those voices that have uttered their opinions in my head.
I have just finished an online writing class from the spectacular author/instructor, Patti Digh. Some of you may remember my series of summer writing prompts that I provided from her book, Life is a Verb. She offered a writing class for teachers this summer – and what a wonderful class this was. Not only did I learn a lot about myself – and my need to write – but I learned that I am not alone. There are several of us that bonded over these internet waves and we hope to continue this bond throughout the school year.
I like writing for an audience. Yes, it is true. As introverted as I may be, there is something that excites me when I think others may read what I write. It makes me better – it causes me to be more reflected and more intentional. I need to blog because I think blogging helps to make me a better Molly
BUT….blogging has all kinds of responsibilities attached to it. I LOVE to visit your blogs – to learn what is going on in your life – to share in your joys and sorrows. BUT…it takes so much time. One of the primary reasons I quit blogging was because I was spending nearly two hours every day reading other blogs and posting comments – because I wanted you to know that I cared. And I do…but I just don’t have fourteen spare hours in a week to devote to this “hobby”.
BUT…I dealt with this conflict by running – and as I am learning in life – running away is never the solution. I could not afford the time I was spending – so I opted to spend no time. No time reading blogs (or books, for that matter)….and no time writing on my own blog. And I have missed it
And then there is the issue of the blog name: My Cozy Book Nook. I began this blog because I was afraid that I would run out of personal topics, but I figured I would never run out of books. SO…why not start a book blog? The problem?! I have discovered that reading is but one of my passions in life — a very big passion, mind you, but not a sole passion. And I have created this arbitrary boundary that My Cozy Book Nook should only be about books – and not about me. HOGWASH I say….as many of you have tried to tell me in the past – this is my blog and I can do what I want. And while I still love my nook – and I do have a lot of books in this nook – I also have a lot of other hobbies that I pursue in this private space: photography and writing and scrapbooking and card making and just general thinking.
I have spent the past year taking several online classes – mostly centered around writing and photography, but too many to name at the moment. Suffice it to say I have discovered that I have a true PASSION for writing. I excel in these classes – not excel in terms of talent, but excel in terms of participation and relating to others and creating bonds that will last. I have an interest in photography – but it is only that, an interest. I am not passionate about it. But here’s the thing: THAT IS OK. My photography can enhance my writing — my writing will always take center stage.
And while I may not write fiction (to me, fiction = creative) — My writing is me. It is what I need to do in order to fulfill my purpose. And I am ready to finally live my own life – not the one that I think I should live – or I think others want me to live – or I think my parents would want me to live. But rather – I am ready to lead the life that I feel God is calling to me live.