we oft might win, by fearing to attempt.
~ William Shakespeare
I was sharing this idea with a friend, who cautioned me about writing a story from the antagonist’s point of view. Readers struggle to feel empathy for a villain.
Her words caused me to sit up and take notice. Not that I questioned her writing advice, but I questioned her assessment of Delilah. Is she a villain?!
But if Delilah’s harsh criticism manifests itself as Impostor Syndrome – and Impostor Syndrome is all about self-doubt – then doesn’t that make Delilah a traitor? Has she not betrayed me and prevented me from living a full life?
I am a “good” girl. I strive to do what is right. I obey the rules. But lately the rules seem too rigid, the criticism too harsh, and the rewards too few.
I’ve reached the point where I must either quit striving – or sever ties with the one who keeps me bound by legalistic thinking. I do not want to grow weary of doing good – it is a part of my DNA. But I also want an abundant life filled with joy, adventure, and love.
So I guess the choice is clear: Delilah, I will always care for you, but I don’t think we can be friends anymore.